smiles...
and then an Awkward silence
Don’t get mad because I’m not myself
Actually I am myself, so get mad
You haven’t seen anything outside of a good mood
And rarely do I let you
So don't mistake me for my silence
I and my silence are two different sides of my personality
Balancing between acts that keep me trapped somewhere in between
My silent moment is my brain's time to think through things
Time to process my next poem
Because I’m probably inspired or pissed off
I’m not here to make you laugh today
I’m here hoping happy has a surprise visit for me
Because lately, smiles only come after looking at the funny face
I make when I’m unhappy in front of a mirror
Smiles are rare since I hardly can deal with a reflection of reflective thought filled eyes
That remind me of what makes me cry
Yeah, I’m going to go there
Take a trip through seas that flow towards the center of the earth
Whether I’m laying down or sitting up
Or leaned up against the wall
Or facing the floor
These seas can only turn into White Water Rivers
When I think of the northern winds that move me so
Don’t mistake me for my silence
My silence's headache has never complained
About anything more than a migraine of confusion
Between words that hardly exist
So my silence's message says
"don't read between the lines, read between the letters -
I’ve written to you"
Letters written in silence
Between lines of miscommunication
My dropped calls were really red buttons
That cut off the fuel to the flame that I thought could never be extinguished
I’m sorry
Please don't mistake me for my silence
Ask me why I’m quiet
I’ll say nothing is wrong
Because everything is right
Right where left wants it to be
Left left me in between a fetus and a loss of lost love
Because I do still think about her
And more constantly do I find myself thinking
Thinking in silence
So don't mistake me for my silence,
Because my silence, is my loudest poetry.
