4.12.2007

window ledge

He took a deep breath
As he stared down at the spot in the pavement
He picked out to land
He yelled out to sky and pointed "that’s where hell is"

The sixty sixth story window ledge he was standing on
Was the closest he'd ever been to heaven
Closest he'd ever breathed the air of paradise
Because his heart held hopelessly to the promise
Of one day not being broke

His bank account couldn't agree with his hunger
But eating food and drinking wasn't an issue

He wasn't living on an empty stomach,
He was dying on an empty stomach
Because his frustration hardly left time to eat
His broken heart, was hardly the right time to eat

Ex girlfriend, saw something sour smoothing away his rough edges
So she thought killing what they had would help her hovering
Over his actions cease to exist
She confused him wondering what he'd done wrong
But her selfish soul was too much to bother comprehending

He slaved silently as he whispered cries to himself at night
He’d ask her in his sleepless dreams "are you sure about this?"
She’d respond in his insomniatic nightmares
"Baby I haven't been this sure since the last time blades tiptoed over my burning coal covered wrist"
He wrote her a letter saying "thoughts of you take me to suicide"
He fell asleep in a sweat and woke up on the window ledge

He took a deep breath
As he stared at the spot in the pavement
He picked out to land
He yelled out to sky and pointed "that’s where hell is"

Hell is in the darkest reflection of light on your skin
"I MISS YOU" he cried into the air surrounding the sixty sixth floor

As tears fell towards hell
He saw they disintegrated as they got closer to the ground
He didn't want to fade into the dark

Then he thought he came to his senses as if he felt spirits
Move him away from the ledge, telling him not to jump

He stepped down from the ledge and said to himself,
"God, this was silly" as he tripped and pulled himself to the outside of the window
To his relief, his body flung...
Out of the window
Toward that spot marked on the pavement

On his way up he prayed
Thank you for helping me through this god
Thank you for helping me through this
THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME GET