Colors

Its been months since I give myself the time to write on my blog, its something I am really guilty about. For those of you disappointed, I'm sorry. For those of you who are not, you should be. Here's something new I'm working on... remember- work in progress, ya'll get the exclusive. :)

Being is a hard thing to live with when you're a leaf.
Lost. lonely. broken. scared. abused. blind.

This is to:
The young girls who want to love little boys hard because daddy wasn't there.
The ones looking for fathers in step fathers who can only see their mother's ex lovers in them.
The beautiful who won't look in the mirror because they only see the ugly.
The ugliest win over sins is finally being comfortable in your skin,
and DAMN IT you're still feeling at a loss...

Resurrect green chlorophyl with passion.
You need to remember the last time love felt real
and hold onto it for ever.

when you're feeling like a happy red
when tomorrow hopes to be a sunny day
and today its been nothing but rain, sweat and tears
cooling you down
face angry and wet coloring you a shiny crimson
because your mood is based on today's negativity

when ever you're feeling blue
when the sky is falling and your-
-eye to eye, face to face, ear to ear with the troposphere
and you can't breathe because the air is thinner now

When lungs and veins dry up.

when bruises on heart have you feeling purple.
When tornado gusts and hurricane blows are holding you back from reaching your potential.

when you feel like your next breath
is going to take more energy out of you than you can pull in,

When life doesn't show you the next set of options
and rock bottom at fifteen makes you believe letting go from the branch to a
yellow suicide is the only way out of this fucked up world,

Hold on, I got you.

I might not be the greatest example.

but I can promise to be there
When love leaves and leaves scars,
and teach you how to fall like leaves when the wind blows in Autumn.

Fall skillfully, beautifully;
fall and Don't make a sound.
Fall and Don't let your demise be earth quaking
fall and Baby don't let the world see you with your knees to the ground.

change colors and fall, like it was meant to be.

I'll rake up the pieces of your heart and put them in a nice pile for you.
I'll be the helping hand.
I'll be your life's savior.

Suck the positive energy out of me, pull in.
Hold on to me for as long as it takes for you to
get back up on your feet and balanced;

and this time, know to be ready for the next blow.

Life, is not a fairy tale.
Happy endings are only temporary.

Magic only exists when you come to terms with reality
and fall in love with the reflection in the mirror
and realize its not easy being human.

We've all got problems.
Stability is only a hopeless dream if you're hopeless.
So dream.

Dream to push the sky out of reach.
Dream to be successful.
Dream to be that bright star in the sky.
Dream to keep your balance in order.

Because its not the fall that will kill you.
its staying down and not wanting ever getting back up.

Hold on to love.
Hold on to for ever.

Let go of yesterday and promise to carry tomorrow out more carefully.
Be prepared for what the next season may bring to you, or take from you.

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